what might have been, isn't possible. what could have been, won't be. what should have been, can't be. what I wanted is no longer possible. the way it was will never be again. That might sound fatalistic and pessimistic to you. Maybe it is, but I'm okay with it. I am normally annoyingly optimistic, but… Continue reading ongoing grief.
I am a Lyft driver on the weekends and here is a story. I picked them up near the ocean. A father and son. The father didn’t move fast because his joints just wouldn’t let him. He had barely creaked himself into a sitting position into the backseat of my car before he had shared… Continue reading grief shared.
Great grief isn't made to fit inside your body. It's why your heart breaks. ...pain demands to be felt - or it will demand you feel nothing at all. ~ The Broken Way, Ann Voskamp I would hazard to say that any complex, deeply felt emotion isn't made to fit inside of our bodies for a… Continue reading broken heart.
I'd like to think I'm past the "embrace" stage. And maybe I'm on to the "learn" stage. The funny thing about grief, no matter what kind of grief, is that there's always something new to embrace, new to learn, new to explore, and new to live. It's also kind of funny how my wine glasses… Continue reading embrace learn explore live.
I remember saying that my brain knew what happened when Mike died, but that my heart and my soul were having problems catching up. Now, almost a full year later, I still find that to be true, but it’s changed a little since he died. At first, I was looking for his pick-up in the… Continue reading remembering.
Maybe people who aren’t going though grief have similar things that they deal with in life. I seem to recall that life would throw me for a twist every so often and I’d be in my doldrums for a little bit, but would bounce back soon enough. This…this is different. I alternate from happy, happy,… Continue reading moments.